Okyanusun kenar\u0131nda, tuzlu r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fe i\u015fleyen kokusunu i\u00e7ie \u00e7ekiyorum. Ufuk, a\u011f\u0131r bulutlarla \u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fc; g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na yery\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn t\u00fcm y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131rtlam\u0131\u015f gibi. Yakla\u015fan ya\u011fmur, derinlerden y\u00fckselen bir s\u0131rr\u0131, ruhun karanl\u0131k odalar\u0131nda yank\u0131lanan kadim bir f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131y\u0131 anlatacak sanki\u2026 Ve tam kar\u015f\u0131da, hi\u00e7li\u011fin ortas\u0131nda, zaman\u0131n ak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 reddeden sessiz bir at beliriyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu sahne bir tablo de\u011fil, bir r\u00fcya hi\u00e7 de\u011fil. Schopenhauer\u2019\u0131n s\u00f6zleri \u00e7\u0131nl\u0131yor zihnimde: \u201cD\u00fcnya bir temsil.\u201d G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm ger\u00e7ekten burada m\u0131, yoksa zihnimdeki sonsuz aynalar\u0131n yans\u0131mas\u0131 m\u0131? Heisenberg\u2019in belirsizli\u011finde, varla yok aras\u0131nda as\u0131l\u0131 duran bir an gibi\u2026 Her bak\u0131\u015f, her d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce, ger\u00e7ekli\u011fi yeniden \u015fekillendiriyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve i\u015fte o an bir \u015fark\u0131 duyuluyor:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cMadem yaln\u0131z de\u011filiz\u2026\u201d<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Kelimeler, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn gri a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yararak i\u00e7ime s\u0131z\u0131yor. Yaln\u0131z de\u011filsek, kim var bu \u0131ss\u0131z sahilin di\u011fer ucunda? Kiminle payla\u015f\u0131yoruz bu r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131, bu sessizli\u011fi, bilinmezli\u011fin ortas\u0131nda dimdik duran bu at\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Topra\u011f\u0131n susuzlu\u011funu giderecek olan damlalar, ruhlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 da birbirine ba\u011flayacak. O an, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc \u00e7\u00f6kerken, sessizlik par\u00e7alanacak ve biz yaln\u0131z olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bir kez daha hat\u0131rlayaca\u011f\u0131z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n