{"id":1040,"date":"2012-01-10T15:22:55","date_gmt":"2012-01-10T12:22:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/?p=1040"},"modified":"2025-09-23T12:54:29","modified_gmt":"2025-09-23T09:54:29","slug":"biz-biciri-cok-sevdik","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/biz-biciri-cok-sevdik\/","title":{"rendered":"Biz B\u0131c\u0131r\u2019\u0131 \u00e7ok sevdik"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>T\u00fcrkiye&#8217;de ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz on g\u00fcnl\u00fck y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131 tatilinden sonra, Z\u00fcrih&#8217;in dondurucu so\u011fu\u011fuyla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131k. Aral\u0131k 2011&#8217;in o kasvetli havas\u0131nda, bu k\u0131sa ka\u00e7amak bize \u00e7ok iyi gelmi\u015f, biraz olsun enerji depolamam\u0131z\u0131 sa\u011flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ancak bu kez eve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f, her zamankinden farkl\u0131yd\u0131. Apartman\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcrken, her ad\u0131m\u0131m\u0131zda i\u00e7imizdeki o buruklu\u011fu daha da hissediyorduk. B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7acakt\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O yoktu art\u0131k. \u0130\u00e7eri girdi\u011fimizde bizi ko\u015farak kar\u015f\u0131lamayacak, ayaklar\u0131m\u0131za dolanmayacak, yemek kab\u0131n\u0131n oldu\u011fu yere do\u011fru bizi y\u00f6nlendirmeyecekti. Bizi bekleyen o s\u0131cak, sevimli dostumuzla bir daha hi\u00e7 kar\u015f\u0131la\u015famayacakt\u0131k. 11 y\u0131l boyunca yan\u0131m\u0131zdan ay\u0131rmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, can\u0131m\u0131zdan bir par\u00e7a olan kedimiz B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;la, 16 Aral\u0131k 2011&#8217;de vedala\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Onu bir anlamda California&#8217;n\u0131n g\u00fcne\u015fli, p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l g\u00fcnlerine u\u011furlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">B\u0131c\u0131r\u2019la Bir \u00d6m\u00fcr<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;s\u0131z bir eve ad\u0131m att\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda neler hissedece\u011fimizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek apartman\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131ndan i\u00e7eri girdik. Her zamanki gibi \u00f6nce posta kutusuna y\u00f6neldim. Bir tomar zarf, fatura ve gazeteyi al\u0131p yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k. Mektuplardan biri di\u011ferlerinden farkl\u0131yd\u0131: Z\u00fcrih \u00dcniversitesi Veteriner Hastanesi&#8217;nden geliyordu. Kal\u0131nca bir \u015fey oldu\u011funu fark ettim. Zarf\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda i\u00e7inden daire \u015feklinde bir al\u00e7\u0131 plaket ve bir not \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Plaketin \u00fcst\u00fcnde kedimizin resmi ad\u0131 &#8220;PRINCESS&#8221; yaz\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131. (Yurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131 kay\u0131tlarda B\u0131c\u0131r\u2019\u0131 telaffuz etmek zor oldu\u011fundan ad\u0131n\u0131 &#8220;Princess&#8221; olarak kaydettirmi\u015ftik.) Plaketin ortas\u0131nda B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;\u0131n iki patisinin kabartmas\u0131 vard\u0131. Hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011fimiz bir anda, kedimiz bizi bir kez daha evin kap\u0131s\u0131nda kar\u015f\u0131lam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Patileriyle bize sanki &#8220;merhaba&#8221; diyordu. Onun el izleriyle bu \u015fekilde kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmak, anlat\u0131lmaz bir duyguydu. Onu tedavi eden veterinerin bu anlaml\u0131 hediyesini uzun s\u00fcre elimizden b\u0131rakamad\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zarf\u0131n i\u00e7inde bir de kart vard\u0131. Kapa\u011f\u0131nda karakalemle \u00e7izilmi\u015f bir kedi resmi bulunuyordu. Sa\u011f patisi ileride, kuyru\u011fu havada\u2026 Sanki birazdan uzakla\u015f\u0131p ufuk \u00e7izgisine do\u011fru kaybolacak gibiydi. Resmin hemen yan\u0131nda Rose Ausl\u00e4nder&#8217;in Almanca dizeleri yer al\u0131yordu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>D\u00fcnyaya gelmeden \u00f6nce<br>bir kelebektim, bir a\u011fa\u00e7,<br>belki bir y\u0131ld\u0131z\u2026<br>bunu unuttum<br>fakat \u015fimdi \u00f6yle oldu\u011fumu ve \u00f6yle kalaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 biliyorum<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kart\u0131n i\u00e7 sayfas\u0131nda, B\u0131c\u0131r\u2019\u0131 tedavi eden veterinerlerin yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 paragrafl\u0131k teselli mesaj\u0131 ve hepsinin ayr\u0131 ayr\u0131 imzas\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;s\u0131z bir hayata kendimizi haz\u0131rlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, bir anda onun patilerine tekrar dokunabilmek bizi sevin\u00e7le h\u00fcz\u00fcn aras\u0131nda bir yolculu\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Onu bir kez daha, b\u00fct\u00fcn an\u0131lar\u0131yla hat\u0131rlad\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa Haz\u0131r De\u011fildik<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;la 16 Aral\u0131k&#8217;ta vedala\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Onu ya\u015fatmak i\u00e7in uzun s\u00fcre m\u00fccadele etmi\u015ftik. Be\u015f ay \u00f6nce, ilk kez veterinere g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde durumu hi\u00e7 iyi de\u011fildi. Kontrollerden sonra veteriner, b\u00fct\u00fcn detaylar\u0131yla bize durumu anlatt\u0131. Karar verme zaman\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n geldi\u011fini, ya\u015fama ihtimalinin kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, en fazla on g\u00fcnl\u00fck \u00f6mr\u00fc oldu\u011funu ve uyutulmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini uygun bir dille a\u00e7\u0131klad\u0131. Bu zor ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlat\u0131rken onun da g\u00f6zleri dolmu\u015ftu. B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;\u0131n hik\u00e2yesini, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n bir ucunda ba\u015flayan ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n tesad\u00fcfler sonucu nas\u0131l bu odada kesi\u015fti\u011fini biliyordu. Yolun sonuna geldi\u011fimizi s\u00f6ylerken sesi titriyordu. Ama biz, b\u00fct\u00fcn tavsiyelerin aksine, o g\u00fcn o odadan B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;la birlikte \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k. Onu uyutmaya haz\u0131r de\u011fildik. Bize s\u00f6ylenen b\u00fct\u00fcn ger\u00e7eklere ra\u011fmen, onun ya\u015famaya devam edece\u011fini umduk, adeta bir mucize bekledik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Veterinerin tavsiyelerini dinledi\u011fimiz o g\u00fcnden bu yana be\u015f ay ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fc kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6ylenen kedimiz, her \u015feye inat be\u015f ay daha bizimle kald\u0131. Aral\u0131k ay\u0131 itibar\u0131yla durumu k\u00f6t\u00fcle\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Bekledi\u011fimiz mucizenin ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmeyece\u011finin sinyalleri geliyordu. Art\u0131k o zor karar\u0131 vermemiz gerekti\u011fini anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Tek iste\u011fimiz, 2011&#8217;e beraber veda etmekti. Ma\u00e7\u0131n uzatmalar\u0131 bitmi\u015fti ama oyunu bitirmemek i\u00e7in elimizden geleni yap\u0131yorduk. Ba\u015faramad\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>14 Aral\u0131k&#8217;ta B\u0131c\u0131r yemeyi kesti. O g\u00fcne kadar en sevdi\u011fi mamalar\u0131n\u0131 zorla da olsa elimizden yiyebiliyordu. Art\u0131k veterinerden ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ila\u00e7lar\u0131n da etkisi kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O g\u00fcn bizimle olan ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tamamen koparm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Evin i\u00e7inde onu g\u00f6remiyorduk. Gizli k\u00f6\u015felerde saklan\u0131yor, yan\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda duymamazl\u0131ktan geliyordu. Yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda hi\u00e7bir tepki vermeden uyumaya devam ediyordu. Ertesi g\u00fcn nefes almakta zorland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark ettik. Yeme\u011fine, suyuna hi\u00e7 dokunmad\u0131. G\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7acak h\u00e2li kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Art\u0131k ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmazd\u0131. Her seferinde erteledi\u011fimiz, aramamak i\u00e7in umutla bekledi\u011fimiz veterineri arad\u0131k. Ertesi g\u00fcn, 16 Aral\u0131k&#8217;ta, saat 15:00&#8217;te bizi bekliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Son g\u00fcn\u00fc her an\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 onunla ge\u00e7irmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Onu kuca\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan hi\u00e7 b\u0131rakmad\u0131k. B\u0131raksak bile uzakla\u015facak h\u00e2li kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Aram\u0131za girip kendine bir yer a\u00e7maya, orada uzan\u0131p uyumaya bay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Son g\u00fcn\u00fcnde onu aram\u0131zdan ay\u0131rmad\u0131k. Uzun uzun, hi\u00e7 ses \u00e7\u0131karmadan onu izledik. 11 y\u0131l \u00f6nce onu eve getirdi\u011fimiz ilk g\u00fcnde oldu\u011fu gibi, onu bu son g\u00fcn\u00fcnde de avu\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n i\u00e7inden ay\u0131rmad\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sabah\u0131n ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131yla uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131mda B\u0131c\u0131r ortal\u0131kta yoktu. Kendine se\u00e7ti\u011fi, evin en gizli k\u00f6\u015fesinde uyuyordu. O sabah su i\u00e7medi, yeme\u011fine dokunmad\u0131. Bir ara sakland\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p evin i\u00e7inde k\u0131sa bir y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f yapt\u0131. Hi\u00e7 h\u00e2li yoktu. \u00d6nce birka\u00e7 ad\u0131m at\u0131p dinlendi. Derin bir nefes ald\u0131ktan sonra bir hamle daha yap\u0131p kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne gitti. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kap\u0131ya \u00e7evirdi, s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 bize d\u00f6n\u00fcp oraya uzand\u0131. Hi\u00e7 oturmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir aland\u0131 buras\u0131. Genelde d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan gelirken bizi kar\u015f\u0131lamak i\u00e7in dururdu burada ama biz i\u00e7erideyken burada oturdu\u011funu, hele ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kap\u0131ya, s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 bize \u00e7evirdi\u011fini hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum. Birka\u00e7 saat sonra bu kap\u0131dan bir daha d\u00f6nmemek \u00fczere \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tahmin mi etmi\u015fti? Kedilerin insan hareketlerini \u00f6nceden hissetme yetene\u011fi oldu\u011funu bir yerlerde okumu\u015ftum. O an B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;\u0131n her \u015feyi fark etti\u011fine inand\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Onu \u00e7antas\u0131na koyarken hi\u00e7 tepki g\u00f6stermedi. Oysa bu siyah \u00e7antan\u0131n i\u00e7ine girmemek i\u00e7in her seferinde ne b\u00fcy\u00fck m\u00fccadeleler verirdi. \u00c7antan\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kapat\u0131rken sadece bir kez miyavlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>16 Aral\u0131k 2011 g\u00fcn\u00fc Z\u00fcrih&#8217;te dondurucu bir ayaz vard\u0131. Biz Z\u00fcrih \u00dcniversitesi\u2019nin Veteriner B\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc\u2019ne do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcrken g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc kararm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bulutlar tepemizde h\u0131zla hareket ediyor, ad\u0131m atmay\u0131 zorla\u015ft\u0131ran r\u00fczg\u00e2r etkisini art\u0131r\u0131yordu. Hastanenin kap\u0131s\u0131ndan i\u00e7eri kendimizi zor att\u0131k. Salonda birka\u00e7 ki\u015fi daha vard\u0131. Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda dan\u0131\u015fmadaki g\u00f6revlilerle birlikte salonda bekleyenlerin bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u00f6nce bize, sonra elimizde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7antaya y\u00f6neldi. B\u0131c\u0131r\u2019\u0131n veterinerine haber verildi. Birka\u00e7 dakika sonra bizi oturdu\u011fumuz salonda kar\u015f\u0131lamaya geldi. Merhabala\u015ft\u0131k ama hi\u00e7 konu\u015fmad\u0131k. Geni\u015f bir salonun ucundaki kap\u0131lardan birine do\u011fru y\u00f6neldik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;la vedala\u015fma zaman\u0131 gelmi\u015fti. Uzun s\u00fcre ertelemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o an\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131yorduk. Y\u0131llard\u0131r yan\u0131m\u0131zdan ay\u0131rmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z dostumuzu son kez g\u00f6r\u00fcyorduk. Biz B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;la son anlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ya\u015farken veteriner d\u0131\u015far\u0131da beklemek \u00fczere odadan ayr\u0131ld\u0131. B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;la konu\u015ftuk. Bir elimle onu ok\u015farken, di\u011fer elimle sol patisini avucuma yerle\u015ftirdim. Birazdan hi\u00e7 ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmeden uyuyaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda onu buldu\u011fumuz okyanus kenar\u0131ndaki sahilde olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcne\u015fli California g\u00fcnlerine d\u00f6nece\u011fini f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m. Onunla ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz son dakikalarda iki patisini masan\u0131n ucuna uzat\u0131p sessizce bizi dinledi. Hi\u00e7 hareket etmedi. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 aln\u0131ndan \u00e7ekip patilerini avucumun i\u00e7inden b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda h\u00e2l\u00e2 hareketsizdi. Onu son bir kez daha \u00f6pt\u00fcm ve d\u0131\u015far\u0131da bekleyen veterineri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Sonsuz Bir Yolculuk<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>Binadan ayr\u0131l\u0131rken elimdeki \u00e7antan\u0131n i\u00e7i bo\u015ftu. Geni\u015f salondan kap\u0131ya uzanan koridor, sanki her ad\u0131mda biraz daha uzuyordu. D\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda \u015fiddetli bir r\u00fczg\u00e2r y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcze \u00e7arpt\u0131. Ya\u011fmur at\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hava kararm\u0131\u015f, kararan bulutlar sanki biraz daha al\u00e7alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hastaneden uzakla\u015f\u0131rken ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7evirip binaya bir kez daha bakt\u0131k. Buray\u0131 son kez g\u00f6rece\u011fimi biliyordum. Yolumun bu b\u00f6lgeye bir daha d\u00fc\u015fmeyece\u011fini bildi\u011fim gibi\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O so\u011fuk ve f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 ak\u015fam saatinde, bu \u0131ss\u0131z caddede elimiz bo\u015f eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz o an, onun da bir ba\u015fka yolculu\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131na emindim. Eve girdi\u011fimizde, onun yoklu\u011funu fazlas\u0131yla hissettik. Odalar, koridor, balkon bombo\u015ftu. Kap\u0131y\u0131 her a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda bizi kar\u015f\u0131layan, ayaklar\u0131m\u0131za dolanan dostumuz art\u0131k bize &#8220;ho\u015f geldin&#8221; demeyecekti. Mutfa\u011fa her ad\u0131m\u0131mda evin bir k\u00f6\u015fesinden belirip yemek kab\u0131na do\u011fru ko\u015fmayacak, yolumu kesip beni \u00f6d\u00fcllerinin oldu\u011fu alana y\u00f6nlendirmeyecek, sabah\u0131n k\u00f6r\u00fcnde \u0131slak burnuyla bizi uyand\u0131rmayacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Biz B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;\u0131 \u00e7ok sevdik. Onunla uzun y\u0131llar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 keyifle ge\u00e7irdik. Sevin\u00e7lerimizde, h\u00fcz\u00fcnlerimizde, hayat\u0131m\u0131za y\u00f6n verdi\u011fimiz her de\u011fi\u015fiklikte yan\u0131m\u0131zdayd\u0131. 11 y\u0131l \u00f6nce kalbimize yerle\u015ftirdi\u011fimiz sevgisini oradan hi\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131k. Bundan sonra da \u00e7\u0131karmayaca\u011f\u0131z. Yolculu\u011fumuz onsuz s\u00fcrecek ama onu hi\u00e7 unutmayaca\u011f\u0131z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hayat\u0131m\u0131zda iz b\u0131rakan her bir giden gibi, onunla da bir g\u00fcn bir yerlerde yolumuzun kesi\u015fece\u011fini biliyorum. Belki de bir a\u011fa\u00e7ta, belki bir y\u0131ld\u0131zda\u2026 Belki de B\u0131c\u0131r, California&#8217;n\u0131n o g\u00fcne\u015fli sahilinde, kumsala vuran her dalgada bana g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordur. Okyanusun u\u011fultusunu duydu\u011fumda, onun m\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 dinledi\u011fimi hayal edece\u011fim. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baz\u0131 vedalar, asl\u0131nda bir ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7t\u0131r; sevdiklerimizle aram\u0131zdaki g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez ba\u011f\u0131n sonsuza dek s\u00fcrecece\u011finin bir kan\u0131t\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>(<span style=\"color: #ff0000;\">*<\/span>) <span style=\"color: #ff0000;\">Karttaki Almanca \u015fiir:<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>War ich ein Falter<br>vor meiner Geburt<br>ein Baum oder<br>ein Stern<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ich habe es vergessen<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Aber ich weis<br>das ich war<br>und sein werde<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Augenblicke<br>aus Ewigkeit<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><span style=\"color: #ff0000;\">\u015eiirin \u0130ngilizcesi<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I was a butterfly<br>before my birth<br>a tree or<br>a star<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019ve forgotten it<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But I know<br>I was<br>and will be<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>moments<br>from eternity<br>Rose Auslander<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p><em>The winds that sometimes take something we love, are the same that bring us something we learn to love. Therefore we should not cry about something that was taken from us, but, yes, love what we have been given. Because what is really ours is never gone forever\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-1 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00007.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"600\" data-id=\"867\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00007.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-867\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00007.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00007-320x240.jpg 320w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00007-60x45.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00008.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"600\" data-id=\"865\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00008.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-865\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00008.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00008-320x240.jpg 320w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00008-60x45.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">\u00c7antada kedi<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00056.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"512\" height=\"384\" data-id=\"871\" 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data-id=\"874\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00076.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-874\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00076.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00076-320x240.jpg 320w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00076-60x45.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00071.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"600\" data-id=\"875\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00071.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-875\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00071.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00071-320x240.jpg 320w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00071-60x45.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00060.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"600\" data-id=\"872\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00060.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-872\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00060.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00060-320x240.jpg 320w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00060-60x45.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00062.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"600\" data-id=\"873\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00062.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-873\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00062.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00062-320x240.jpg 320w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00062-60x45.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00113.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"600\" data-id=\"876\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00113.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-876\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00113.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00113-320x240.jpg 320w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00113-60x45.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00117.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"600\" data-id=\"862\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00117.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-862\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00117.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00117-320x240.jpg 320w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/08\/bicir00117-60x45.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7018.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"536\" data-id=\"1051\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7018.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1051\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7018.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7018-60x40.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;\u0131 tedavi eden veterinerlerin veda notu&#8230;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7002.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"572\" data-id=\"1050\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7002.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1050\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7002.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7002-60x43.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Veterinerden gelen kart\u0131n \u00f6n y\u00fcz\u00fc<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7016.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"536\" data-id=\"1049\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7016.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1049\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7016.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/DSC_7016-60x40.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n al\u00e7\u0131 kal\u0131ptaki patileri<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/12\/bicir_forever.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"536\" data-id=\"1041\" src=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/12\/bicir_forever.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1041\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/12\/bicir_forever.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.remgo.com\/11\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/12\/bicir_forever-60x40.jpg 60w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><figcaption><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Foto\u011fraflarla<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-vimeo wp-block-embed-vimeo wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Bicir Photos\" src=\"https:\/\/player.vimeo.com\/video\/34856149?dnt=1&amp;app_id=122963\" width=\"320\" height=\"180\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"autoplay; fullscreen; picture-in-picture; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\"><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>K\u0131sa Film<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-vimeo wp-block-embed-vimeo wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Bicir Movie\" src=\"https:\/\/player.vimeo.com\/video\/34853299?dnt=1&amp;app_id=122963\" width=\"320\" height=\"180\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"autoplay; fullscreen; picture-in-picture; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\"><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p><em>The winds that sometimes take something we love, are the same that bring us something we learn to love. Therefore we should not cry about something that was taken from us, but, yes, love what we have been given. Because what is really ours is never gone forever&#8230;<\/em><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">We Loved Our B\u0131c\u0131r So Much<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-luminous-vivid-amber-background-color has-background has-medium-font-size\"><em>Some losses never truly fade; they simply find a permanent place in our hearts. This is a heartfelt elegy written in memory of a loyal friend, a cat named B\u0131c\u0131r, who left us a decade ago. It is a poignant story of an 11-year journey and the profound sadness that followed her departure, reminding us just how invaluable our pets are to our lives. This piece serves as a touching portrait of the enduring love for a family member and the powerful bond that remains, even in their physical absence.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We returned to Zurich after a ten-day New Year\u2019s holiday in Turkey. This unplanned getaway had been good for us, helping us to rest and recharge our batteries after the gloomy weather of December 2011.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>As we drove home in the dark, the first thing to greet us was the freezing Zurich air. The cold wind from the Alps followed us right to the apartment door.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Approaching the building, our hearts felt heavy. This time, we were about to open a door where B\u0131c\u0131r wasn&#8217;t waiting. She wouldn\u2019t come running to us as we entered. She wouldn\u2019t wind herself around our legs, nor would she lead us to her food bowls. We would never again be greeted by our B\u0131c\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We had said our final goodbye to our cat, who had been with us for 11 years, on December 16, 2011. In a way, we had sent her off to the sunny days of California.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">The Journey Continues<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>Thinking about what it would feel like to step into a B\u0131c\u0131r-less home, we went inside the apartment building. As always, I went to the mailbox before opening our door. I took a stack of envelopes, bills, and newspapers upstairs. One of the letters was different from the others. It was from the Zurich University Veterinary Hospital. I noticed it felt thick.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When I opened the envelope, a circular plaster plaque and a note fell out. On the plaque was our cat&#8217;s official name, &#8220;PRINCESS,&#8221; written above an impression of her two paws. (It was difficult for officials abroad to pronounce &#8220;B\u0131c\u0131r,&#8221; so we had registered her as &#8220;Princess.&#8221;) In a completely unexpected moment, our cat had greeted us at our door one more time. With her paw prints, she was saying hello to us again. To come across her paw prints like this was an indescribable feeling. We held this meaningful gift from the veterinarian who treated her for a long, long time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Inside the envelope, there was also a card. On the cover was a charcoal drawing of a cat. With its right paw forward and its tail in the air, the cat looked as if it was about to walk away, looking out at the horizon line, its shadow on the ground fading away as it got closer to us. Next to the drawing were the German verses of Rose Ausl\u00e4nder:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Before I came into the world<br>I was a butterfly, a tree,<br>perhaps a star\u2026<br>I have forgotten this<br>but now I know that I was so and will remain so.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On the inside pages of the card were a three-paragraph message of condolence from B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;s veterinarians, with each of their individual signatures on the opposite page.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>As we were trying to prepare ourselves for a life without B\u0131c\u0131r, suddenly being able to touch her paws again took us on a journey between joy and sorrow. We remembered her once more.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">We Weren\u2019t Ready to Say Goodbye<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>We had said goodbye to B\u0131c\u0131r on December 16th. For a long time, we had tried to keep her alive. When we took her to the vet five months ago, she was not in good condition. After the check-ups, the vet explained her condition in full detail. He told us that the time had come to make a decision. He gently explained that it would be best to leave B\u0131c\u0131r there that day, as she had no chance of survival, had at most ten days left to live, and needed to be put to sleep. As he spoke, his eyes filled with tears, too. He knew B\u0131c\u0131r&#8217;s story\u2014how her life, which began on the other side of the world, had intersected with his in this room by chance. His voice trembled as he told us we had reached the end of the road. Against all advice, we left that room with B\u0131c\u0131r that day. We weren&#8217;t ready to put her to sleep. We didn&#8217;t want to make that decision, at least not that day. Despite all the facts we were told, we hoped she would continue to live. In other words, we waited for a miracle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Five months had passed since the day we listened to the vet&#8217;s advice. Our cat, who was told she had only a few days left, defied everything and stayed with us for five more months. 2011 was coming to an end. From December onwards, her condition worsened. The signs that our expected miracle would not happen were becoming clear. We knew we would have to make that difficult decision soon. Our only wish was to at least say goodbye to 2011 together. The overtime was over, but we kept doing our best to not end the game. We failed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On December 14th, B\u0131c\u0131r stopped eating. Until that day, she had been able to eat her favorite foods from our hands, even if we had to coax her. The medicine we got from the vet had no effect anymore. That day, she completely cut off her connection with us. We couldn&#8217;t find her in the house. She was hiding in secret corners, pretending not to hear us when we called her. When we approached her, she would continue to sleep without any reaction. The next day, we noticed she was having difficulty breathing. She didn&#8217;t touch her food or water that day. She didn&#8217;t have the strength to open her eyes. The time had finally come to make the difficult decision. We called the vet, whom we had hoped to avoid calling. She was expecting us the next day, December 16th, at 3:00 PM.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On that last day, we tried to spend every moment with her. We didn&#8217;t let her out of our arms. Even if we had, she didn&#8217;t have the strength to walk away. She used to love to make space for herself between us, to lie down and sleep there. On her last day, we didn&#8217;t separate her from us. We watched her for a long time in silence. Just as we had held her in our hands on the very first day we brought her home 11 years ago, we didn&#8217;t let her go on this last day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When I woke up with the first light of dawn, B\u0131c\u0131r was nowhere to be seen. She was sleeping in the most secret corner of the house she had chosen for herself. She didn&#8217;t drink water that morning, didn&#8217;t touch her food. At one point, she came out of her hiding spot and took a short walk around the house. She had no energy. She took a few steps and rested. After a deep breath, she made another move and went to the front door. She turned her head toward the door, turned her back to us, and lay down there. This was a spot where she never used to lie down. She would usually stand here to greet us when we came from outside, but I don&#8217;t remember her ever sitting here when we were inside, especially with her head turned to the door and her back to us. Did she sense that she would be leaving through this door in a few hours, never to return? I had read somewhere that cats have a special ability to sense human actions in advance. At that moment, I believed B\u0131c\u0131r was aware of everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She showed no reaction when I put her in her carrier. Yet, she used to fight so hard every time to avoid getting into that black bag. As I zipped up the carrier, we heard her meow just once.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On December 16, 2011, there was a freezing cold snap in Zurich. As we walked toward the Veterinary Department of Zurich University, the sky had darkened. The clouds were moving quickly above us. The wind, which made it difficult to walk, was picking up. We had a hard time getting inside the hospital. There were a few other people in the waiting room. When we opened the door, the looks of the people waiting there, including the receptionist, turned first to us, then to the carrier we were carrying. The vet was informed. A few minutes later, she came to meet us in the waiting room. We greeted each other, but we didn&#8217;t speak. We walked toward one of the doors at the end of the large hall.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It was time to say goodbye to B\u0131c\u0131r. We were living through the moment we had tried to postpone for so long. We were seeing our friend, who had been with us for years, for the last time. As we spent our final moments with B\u0131c\u0131r, the vet left the room to wait outside.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We talked to B\u0131c\u0131r. With one hand, I stroked her, and with the other, I placed her left paw in my palm. I whispered that she would fall asleep without any pain and that when she woke up, she would be on the beach by the ocean where we had found her, returning to the sunny California days where she first opened her eyes. In our last moments with her, she extended her two paws to the edge of the table and listened to us silently. She didn&#8217;t move. When I lifted my head from her forehead and released her paws from my palm, she was still motionless. I kissed her one last time and called the vet back in.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">An Eternal Journey<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>As we left the building, the carrier in my hand was empty. The corridor stretching from the large hall to the door seemed to get a little longer with every step. When we got outside, a strong wind hit our faces. It had started to rain. The sky had darkened, and the dark clouds seemed to have come down a little lower. As we walked away from the hospital, we turned our heads and looked at the building one more time. I knew this would be the last time I would see this place, just as I knew my path would never lead me back to this area.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On that cold and stormy evening, as we returned home with empty hands on this desolate street, I was sure that she had embarked on another journey. When we entered the house, we felt her absence more than ever. The rooms, the corridor, the balcony were all empty. Our friend, who used to greet us and wind herself around our legs every time we opened the door, would no longer say &#8220;welcome home.&#8221; Every time I stepped into the kitchen, she wouldn&#8217;t appear from a corner of the house and run to her food bowl, she wouldn&#8217;t block my path to direct me to where her treats were, and she wouldn&#8217;t wake us up in the morning with her wet nose.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We loved our B\u0131c\u0131r so much. We spent many happy years with her. She was with us in our joys, in our sorrows, and through every change we made in our lives. The love we placed in our hearts 11 years ago had never left. And it never will. Our journey will continue without her, but we will never forget her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Just like all those who have left us, I know that our paths will one day cross somewhere. Perhaps in a tree, or in a star\u2026 Maybe B\u0131c\u0131r is smiling at me in every wave that crashes on the sunny beaches of California. When I hear the roar of the ocean, I&#8217;ll imagine I&#8217;m listening to her purr. Because some goodbyes are actually a new beginning\u2014a testament to the invisible bond between us and those we love that will last forever.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n en \u00f6nemli yolculuklar\u0131ndan biri, kalbimizde iz b\u0131rakan dostlarla omuz omuza y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczd\u00fcr. 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