Baz\u0131 yazarlar\u0131 ge\u00e7 ke\u015ffetmenin sevincine hep bir pi\u015fmanl\u0131k kar\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Hakan Yaman’\u0131 okurken o pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 hissettim. Ke\u015fke daha \u00f6nce tan\u0131\u015fabilseydim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0130stanbul bug\u00fcn\u00fcn \u015fehri de\u011fil. \u00c7ocuklu\u011fumda<\/a> y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm sokaklar, bindi\u011fim vapurlar, unutmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kareler, hepsi yeniden beliriyor sayfalar aras\u0131nda. \u015eehir beni eski g\u00fcn\u00fcne<\/a> geri g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Foto\u011fraftaki Kad\u0131n kitab\u0131nda \u0130stanbul bir fon de\u011fil, kendi ba\u015f\u0131na nefes alan bir karakter. Sokaklar\u0131, mahalleleri, insanlar\u0131yla de\u011fil; saklad\u0131klar\u0131yla, unutturduklar\u0131yla da kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Okurken alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7izdi\u011fim \u015fu paragraflar \u00e7ok \u015fey anlat\u0131yor:<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ensende yak\u0131n bir nefes hissedersen r\u00fczg\u00e2r deyip ge\u00e7me. B\u00fcy\u00fck \u015fehirlerde r\u00fczg\u00e2r esmez. B\u00fcy\u00fck \u015fehirlere kurt inmez, kar ya\u011fmaz \u00f6yle diz boyu, g\u00f6z\u00fcn alabildi\u011fine kopkoyu bir karanl\u0131k da olmaz geceleri. Ama buralar\u0131n daha tehlikeli esintileri, daha uzun di\u015fli canavarlar\u0131, daha kara k\u0131\u015flar\u0131 vard\u0131r. Daha so\u011fuk, daha beyaz… Bilmezsin. \u0130yisi mi sen bu \u015fehirdeki her \u015feyi farkl\u0131 belle. G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne asla aldanma. Hep alt\u0131nda bir \u015feyler ara, \u015f\u00fcphe et, inanma. Burada her \u015feye yeniden ba\u015fla, yeniden \u00f6\u011fren bildiklerini bile. \u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden \u015fehrin herhangi bir k\u00f6pr\u00fcs\u00fcnde, y\u00fcksek bir tepesinde, kald\u0131r\u0131m\u0131nda, yoku\u015funda y\u00fcr\u00fcrken arkamdan gelen her esintide bu s\u00f6z\u00fc hat\u0131rlar\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Benim ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m belli olmaz \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. Bazen durup dururken k\u0131zar\u0131m pek \u00e7ok \u015feye ama k\u0131zg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m bile i\u00e7imi yakar, i\u00e7ime akar k\u0131zg\u0131n bir ya\u011f gibi… Tepem iyice atar. \u015e\u00f6yle derim \u00e7\u0131ksam, vapurlarda \u00f6zenle se\u00e7ilmi\u015f kelimeleri k\u0131s\u0131k sesleriyle tekrarlayarak sat\u0131\u015f yapan usta seyyar sat\u0131c\u0131lar gibi ben de kendimi atsam ortaya. \u015eu g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz desem Baylar Bayanlar. Da\u011flar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck adamlar\u0131n \u00fclkesinden gelen k\u00e2furu de\u011fil, jilet de\u011fil, \u00e7akmak de\u011fil, tarak de\u011fil, kalem de\u011fil, bu sizin \u00fc\u00e7e be\u015fe sat\u0131n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z plastik \u0131v\u0131r z\u0131v\u0131rdan hi\u00e7biri de\u011fil desem. Hi\u00e7 utanmadan, y\u00fcz\u00fcm k\u0131zarmadan vapurda ortaya \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p, \u00f6ylece s\u00f6ylesem bunlar\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Her g\u00fcn bu vapurlarda bir k\u0131tadan \u00f6tekine ge\u00e7er durursunuz. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da lodos olur, poyraz olur, mart\u0131 olur, ku\u015f olur. Bir g\u00fcn ama tek bir g\u00fcn \u015fu vapurun pencerelerinden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda kendilerini kuleleriyle, saraylar\u0131yla, camileriyle, \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131lar\u0131yla, minareleriyle ve kubbeleriyle her g\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn i\u00e7ine sokmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bunca tarihi eserin ni\u00e7in oralarda dikilip durdu\u011funu merak edip \u00f6\u011frenmezsiniz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Beyo\u011flu’ndaki sinema salonlar\u0131nda, pastanelerde, T\u00fcnel’de bir kitap\u00e7\u0131 d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131nda ya da Galata Mevlevihanesi’den Karak\u00f6y’e inen dik yoku\u015ftaki m\u00fczik aletleri satan d\u00fckk\u00e2nlardan birinin vitrinindeki gitarlara bakarken, \u015eehzadeba\u015f\u0131’nda, sukemerinin hemen alt\u0131nda durmu\u015f, Re\u015fat Nuri Tiyatrosu’nda bilet kuyru\u011funda bekleyenleri seyrederken, Taksim’de AKM’nin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n aras\u0131nda, A\u015fiyan’da, Emirg\u00e2n’da serin, ye\u015fil g\u00f6lgelerde gezenleri, Rumelikava\u011f\u0131’nda, Anadolu Hisar\u0131’nda bal\u0131k yiyenleri, Ey\u00fcp’te teleferi\u011fe binenleri izlerken, Kad\u0131k\u00f6y’deki barlardan birinin hemen \u00f6n\u00fcnde, tam i\u00e7eri girecekken, Fenerbah\u00e7e’de, Moda’da bir \u00e7ay bah\u00e7esinde \u00fczeri dumanl\u0131, bir bardak demli \u00e7ay\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ma g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrken, M\u0131s\u0131r \u00c7ar\u015f\u0131s\u0131’nda baharat kokular\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda y\u00fcz\u00fcm bir esans\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck cam \u015fi\u015felerle, nargilelerle s\u00fcsledi\u011fi vitrininden yans\u0131rken, Tahtakale’deki z\u00fccaciyecilerden yay\u0131lan metal parlakl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla ba\u015f\u0131m d\u00f6nerken, \u015ei\u015fhane’de avizecilerin vitrinlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcnden mah\u015feri \u0131\u015f\u0131k c\u00fcmb\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnde g\u00f6zlerim kama\u015farak ge\u00e7erken, Yedikule’de bir meyhanede pilakinin yan\u0131nda bir duble de rak\u0131 i\u00e7erken, sa\u00e7lar\u0131mda kuru bir r\u00fczg\u00e2rla r\u0131ht\u0131mda gezerken akl\u0131mda hep o oluyordu. Ama o yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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